I am not perfect and that is perfectly fine

I feel like I have to remind myself of this all
the time.

I'm not perfect. And that's perfectly fine. 

I cant do it all. Sometimes I have to say "No" when I am asked to do something. Sometimes I am late. Sometimes I am disorganized. Sometimes I am uncertain. Sometimes I am scared. Sometimes I say things I don't mean. Sometimes I don't want to leave my house. Sometimes I don't want to leave my bed. Sometimes things don't go as I gad planned.

That's okay. I remind myself it will all be okay. I have survived through worse days, I will make it through today. 

I feel like we put too much pressure on ourselves to be perfect. To have this great life, and awesome job, fancy house, well behaved children, and a perfect marriage. But that's not real. My job is good, but its not what I dreamt. My house is far from fancy, but it keeps us warm. My children are good kids but they are not always well behaved. And my marriage is far from perfect, but I love my husband more than i can truly express to you. And all of this makes my life great. 

I don't have to be the parent that overworks herself, volunteers for every school event, never misses a game or practice, and adds more stress to her plate than able to handle. I don't need to prove to the world what kind of mother or wife I am because I already know. My family already knows. They know they are loved without any conditions, that I would do anything for them, and that they almost always have clean underwear.

I remind myself every day that I can only do so much. We all need that reminder. Stress does not need to control our lives and we don't need to judge other's lives but instead ask if they need a helping hand and we don't need to worry about others judging our lives but instead asking for help. Make the world a stress free place. ✌

Namaste

If you follow me regularly on Instagram, Snapchat, or Facebook you probably notice that I am all about that Yoga right now! For real, it is changing my life.
Stress is flowing off my shoulders. I am stretching and releasing knots in my spine (aka stress knots). I am feeling centered and relaxed and (most importantly!!!) happy.

The change that is happening in my body and mind is amazing by just adding at minimum 10 minutes of yoga to my daily routine. So I thought if 10 minutes a day was doing such good for me, why not do a little bit of a challenge? Because you know, I like to push myself. I started a 3 week yoga program and boy oh boy do I love it! Today I can feel it in my whole body. My arms, legs, and abs are all sore and my mind is... peaceful. As weird and hippy-like that that sounds when I say it, but it is totally true.

Raise your hand if you are in love with yoga! Seriously though, have you tried it? Like, I know people try it and then are like "I did it one time and felt so awkward and stuff so no, not my thing..." I get it. Totally awkward. You have to get passed the awkwardness and go for it. Don't worry about if anyone is judging you, because no one is. Except for you, you are totally judging yourself and girl... you need to cut that shit out!

The Boy Mom Life Is The Life For Me. I guess...

"Put your wiener away!"

This is one of many phrases that I never expected to say so frequently in my life. Along with "Get your hands out of your pants", "You can't pee there", and "No, I'm not pooping, I am a girl and sit when I pee".

My adult life is not what I had imagined 10 years ago. For some reason I really thought it would be a little more... adult-like?

I spend me days talking about dirt bikes, soccer, Pokemon, video games, trucks, dinosaurs, Minecraft and other things I barely comprehend. When my oldest son tells me about the world he is playing on Minecraft I swear he is speaking a whole other language. I just nod and add a lot of "Wow, thats great buddy!"s to it. I really have no idea if what he is saying is great. It could be terrible for all I know. I really just go by the vibe I am getting from him to determine if its good or bad.

People often ask if we are going to try for a girl...those people are Fucking insane! Maybe more than 2 children is a life others want to live, but 2 is good enough for me. I dont want them to out number us and take over. Also, I have no clue what I would do with a girl at this point. I guess dirt bikes and toy trucks can come in pink, right? Maybe she would fart less and make less jokes about poop and butts... Eh, who am I kidding, she would still be my kid so thats doubtful!

But all in all, being a mom has turned out to be the coolest thing I have ever done. And being a mom of boys has been a perfect fit!

Think Positive

There is so much going on in our lives that cause stress. Everyday things too! 

• Work

• School

• Bills

• Everything!

I feel like so many of us are stuck in these stressful mindsets from things that don't have to be stressful. 

For example...

Today I walked into work an immediately felt the stress settling in. I always get knots on my spine when I stress and when I started feeling those I decided, this is stupid. The day will go on. This will all be over soon. It doesn't have to be a bad day if I don't let it be!

Or I when I was figuring out the budget for the next 2 weeks, instead of stressing over this bill and that bill or wishing I had more of a Savings or worrying about if my credit will ever be decent again, I was thankful. I am able to pay my Mortgage. I work hard and so does AJ. Our children are fed and clothed. The lights and water are still on. Life is good. 

We are blessed. We all are. We are here another day. Our stresses do not have to define our lives. Our happiness can instead. 

Why not choose to be happy

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10? Or even 2? I used to never have an answer for this question. I felt like an idiot! Where do I see myself!?! I don't fucking know! Hopefully future me has her poop in a group because I have not a clue what I want to be when I grow up! And yes, I know I am closer to 30 than 20. I am aware.. 

So at 24 I took a leap into corporate America and got a job at a bank. That's pretty "adult" right? That's what I thought! So I worked real hard and tried to move up the ladder. Long story short; I was so unhappy...

I regret nothing because I learned a lot about myself. I learned I have anxiety and it is a very real thing. I also learned if it doesn't make you happy, is it truly worth it?? If you wake up in the morning dreading the day, what is the point? 

So I decided to take a stand and be happy, dammit! 

Things I do to ensure my happiness include but are not limited to...

• Yoga. Every damn day!
• Hoola hooping. Something I do for fun and to help trim my waist.
• I read often to keep my mind thinking.
• I listen to Personal Development books and pod casts every morning to get me in a good mood first thing in the morning. 
• I smile. Often. 
• I don't let work take over my life.
• I bake. Something I have always loved and plan to turn into so much more than just a hobby.
• Regular exercise. On top of yoga I am doing a workout program.
• Fuel my body properly. Fruits, veggies, whole grains, Shakeology, and pizza. Always Pizza.
• Music. Lots of Music.

You have a choice. I used to think this is just how people live. Working for the weekend. Hating the week. I do things to make me enjoy everyday and the change is amazing. My goal in life is to show others the light and change their ways of thinking. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my first post. I hope you come back for more and share with your friends. What do you do because it makes you truly happy? Please share in the comments.